Obviously, it is now December. I really meant to post this on Friday, but life gets very busy and well here we are on Wednesday. I really like doing an overview of the month. It gives me time to sit down and take a deep breath. It’s a chance to soak in everything that has happened in past 4 short weeks and digest the events that lead up to the post. I really like to self reflect. I really like to learn and understand how to move forward in my life in the best possible way.
November was eventful, so much changed for the good. I have had so many doors open for me that I have prayed on my face for. Things that days before my transplant I was only sitting with my mom and dreaming about. Won’t God do it? I’m continuously amazed at what He is doing in my life.
I talked in my ‘life + health update’ a couple posts ago, about finally being able to start back at work. It has been so amazing to be back, I can’t even accurately express to you how blessed I am. It’s so amazing to be back to a normal pace of life, in general. I mean, I’m definitely still adjusting to working 5 or 6 days a week and incorporating in all my side hustles and making time for my loved ones, but it’s a 100% improvement from before. I could never express the joy and thankfulness I truly feel.
Thanksgiving was such a bitter sweet time with my family. This Thanksgiving and Christmas will be the last we have all together at my Nana’s house. It’s where we’ve gathered for every holiday, birthday, and big event since I can remember. It’s where I spent a large portion of my childhood, running around, playing with my cousins. It’s where my mom and uncle grew up. Where I’ve listened to my mom tell me sweet stories of her life before me. It’s where I’ve lived the past 3 years. I’ve gone through so many stages of life here. This house may just be a house, but I can’t help but tear up and feel so lost thinking it won’t be ours before too long.
Pawpaw is in pretty bad health right now, so we made sure to take a lot of good family photos. It was Haddon’s second Thanksgiving and it was his 89th day seizure free (he is now 101 days! Praise Jesus). It was Katelyn and Matt’s first Thanksgiving as a married couple and they still had to sit at the kid’s table with me! haha! It was baby Kai’s first Thanksgiving. Our first Thanksgiving without Max (my aunt and uncle’s dog, he was really apart of the family). It was my first Thanksgiving with my new life.
There are endings and beginnings all throughout life. It’s best to slow down and soak up moments like this.
I actually had to work on Thanksgiving night, Black Friday, and that Saturday. All I have to say is, you really should have a high respect for retail workers, because that was not smooth sailing, y’all. I’ve never seen so many people go wild over something like I did the $35 sherpas we had Thanksgiving night. People were really working off their dinner, that’s for sure! It was fast faced and really hectic, but in the moments when I felt like it would never end, I also felt really thankful. I felt thankful to be alive, helping these people, who would in turn would hopefully bring happiness to a loved one with their gifts. Everything really does have that silver lining if you’ll squint your eyes a bit and look for it.
I’m also amazed at how this blog, just in this month, has been working in other’s lives and I’m amazed at the outpouring of love that is coming from it. That has been the point from the very start. I firmly believe that God gives us mountains to show others they can be moved. I’ve had a few mountains be put in my way the past few years and by His grace, I’ve been blessed enough to move them. I couldn’t imagine not sharing that. I feel it would be so selfish of me to keep my life’s trials and victories to myself. I feel my purpose is to share and build up. So even if I had to go through everything that has happened in the past 6 years, in order to have this testimony to make a difference or leave an impact on someone else, it’s worth it. I’m talking it’s worth every heartbroken tear, every scream of emotional or physical pain and anguish. It’s worth every bad day, every set back, every time I felt like I would just absolutely rather Jesus Himself take me off this Earth than have to push forward another day. It was worth it, y’all, if even one reads my words and feels changed.
Jesus left the 99 for me. For just one little ‘ol me. How could I reject the hardships put in my life, with divine purpose, to make me who I’m supposed to be. I could not and will not.
I’ve had a friend come to me this past week with an idea for a type of outreach group. I can’t give many details right now because it’s in the baby stages, but It’s just so mind blowing for me. I had prayed so hard about this very thing and here it is, I’ve been so honored to be asked to collab on something that will hopefully help so many others.
As of December 1st, it’s been 3 months since my kidney transplant. I texted dad yesterday and said, “I didn’t even realize, but the 1st was 3 months since my transplant. That’s sorta hard for me to wrap my head around because I feel so dramatically better (even comparing to the first couple weeks post op). Like in my head it would make more sense if it had been more like 6 months already.”
That pretty much sums up my month of November. I’m so utterly thankful for life, thankful for my family, thankful for new beginnings and praising the Lord even still in the endings. I hope you all can look back on your November and see some really beautiful things, too. I hope you would share those with me.